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Between Clouds and Dust
07:29
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Leaves fall
As in a dream
Drawing my eyes up
To passing clouds
As in a dream
I am walking.
I'm walking by faith
I'm walking by trust
Down to the river...
—All ways to the river—
...of dust
Not everything has changed
Not everyone is gone
You are now here with me
The sky is unendingly long
As in a dream
As in a dream
You are now here with me
You are now here with me
to let me be
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2. |
The Tower
06:04
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The creaks of time gather
for one last shout
on this night
Collapsing together
We remember
How to sing
In this darkness so bright
The leaves give their applause
As the wind breathes them to life.
The tower comes crashing down,
A final memory of future strife.
The gentle bird moves on,
Flying among fallen trees
And weathervane rust.
When you're in that world,
I guess
There's a real difference
Between clouds and dust
As the wind rolls on,
Leaves fall.
Will barren trees survive?
Black birds circle above.
Every watered creed has dried.
Not everything has changed
Not everyone is gone
At once
The sky is unendingly long
As in a dream
As in a dream
You are now here with me
To help me see
Not everything has changed
Not everyone is gone
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3. |
The Still Hour
05:25
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I know my thoughts,
and I know that
I cannot let them live
I know my thoughts,
and I know that they
hide the truth
that you give
So it’s through your gates that I crawl
and into your courts that I call,
To keep myself away from my thoughts.
Out of this world
Out of this mind
Out of this world.
Now, this is being alone.
Into your sadness
Into your mind
Trying to right my wrongs...
Trying to make sense of time...
As the winds roll on,
Only barren trees survive.
The gentle bird is gone.
Every watered creed has dried.
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4. |
The God Who Is Hidden
06:06
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I
Felt nothing
Saw nothing
Sensed nothing
This forest is an empty room
Bruised knuckles in the dark.
Splinters from Heaven’s door
Fallen on the floor
When it was day I wished for the night
When it was night I wished for the day
The agony of prayer
The agony of prayerlessness
I can never be master...
I can never gain control
Not only am I saved by grace—
Must I live by it as well?
Must I live by grace in prayer?
What’s the point in praying
When I know
You’re in control?
"Before I call...
You will answer.
While I speak...
You have already heard."
(Isaiah 65:24)
There’s no point in praying
When I am in control.
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5. |
Still Remains
03:50
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Place your hand over mine.
Guide my sail
Into the wind.
Red turned funereal brown:
Desolate—
My true condition
The approach of the coming winter
Has forced me deeper inside.
Preserving and strengthening
A resolute silence
Not merely the absence of noise,
The silence formed a substance.
The silence truly spoke for me.
The silence did not seek
an answer
The silence did not seek
forgiveness...
The silence declared that
You are righteous...
and I a sinner.
Now that it’s quiet
I only miss the sounds
Of you
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6. |
Consumed by Thirst
04:57
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My soul is parched
A thirst that leads to despair
A thirst that makes me aware
A thirst that leads to prayer
I thirst to find you there
Trying to hide the separation of sin
Separates me all the more.
Frightened by a hardened heart,
I give even my silence
to God
As leaves fall
As fall leaves
I see the forest
through the trees
I see the answer
in front of me:
Part of your life
My life must be
And now
My prayer is not toward a god of heaven
My prayer is not to a god far off
My prayer is toward the God
who is closer to me
than I am aware
who is closer to me
than my deepest care
My God,
I thirst to find you there
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7. |
The Deep Flood
05:20
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Blessed, holy mourning
The prayer of tears
No more silent cries
No more dry eyes,
No more deaf ears,
And a cold heart.
No more silent cries.
Let me receive the gift of tears.
Have mercy on me.
“In your deep floods
Drown my faults and fears;
Nor let [Your] eye
See sin, but through my tears.”
(Phineas Fletcher. 1580–1650. 222. A Litany)
Have mercy on me.
And,
Even when my eyes are dry…
...Keep my soul
In tears...
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8. |
Stay Awake
06:30
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What’s the point in praying
When I give to you control?
Have I finally reached the point
When I give to you control?
The blessedness of a winter
That has lost its covering
In you I place my trust
In you I place my fears
Let me walk through the river of dust
Overflowing with sinners’ tears
Stay awake and watch
Not my will, but yours be done.
I lift my arms, and
Into your arms I lift
My soul,
My life.
My children,
My wife.
I lift my arms, and
Into your arms I lift
My hopes,
my dreams.
My anger,
my enemies.
My fears,
my tears...
...And I walk away.
Stay awake and watch.
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Some things will remain dead
And it is better that way
It is better this way
Better dead than alive or captive
Some things will remain dead
Some things will begin to live
Now that Father Winter has gone.
As Spring brings me to the precipice,
Will I fall,
Fully satisfied,
Fully at rest?
It is never easy letting go.
Death to the things
as they have always been.
Reforming
Conforming
A meditation
Upon that death
Which sets me free
Upon that resurrection
Which brings new life to me
...
As the winds roll on,
The barren trees revive.
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10. |
Cultivating Silence
05:41
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Close to the earth
Open to the sun
Open to the rain
Cultivating silence
Close to the earth
Close to the pain
I am never less alone than when alone
Left a corpse, I am more alive than I've ever been
Content
To hear no human voices
To be free from the dust storm
The need for something
More than solitude
More than the perfect time
To be alone
Somehow to find solitude
in the midst of the multitude
To catch up with you,
I needed to slow down.
—Godspeed—
Cultivating silence
Close to the earth
Close to the pain
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11. |
Ending at the Falls
08:00
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Ending at the falls,
I followed the sun
In and out of the trees
To see
Your shadow
Cast over fallen leaves
The roar of the river
Swallowed my cry
As time
Swallowed the sun
My hands in praise held high
My voice low in manic shouts
Psalms from distant memories
Songs of future symmetries
Inviting a claim on my doubt
Inhabiting your praise,
The choir of life all around me
Breathing the name of God
In
Exaltation
Adoration
Thanksgiving
Listening stillness
Healing sorrows
My soul ascends to self-forgetting
Upon the holy hill processional
Enter his gates
Enter his courts...
Are there tears in the eyes of God?
Is it tears that cleanse the soul’s blood?
When I'm alone, I'm never alone...
These barren trees have revived.
The gentle bird will return—
As in a dream.
After everything has changed,
After everyone has gone,
You will remain.
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12. |
Heaven's Door
06:27
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I didn't have to look far
I didn't have to look wide
You are the morning tide
You are the evening spark
You are behind the fallen tower
You are with me in the dark
You are waiting...
For me
You are giving me room
For me to seek
You are the God who is hidden
For your glory cannot be refused.
Clouds have hidden your face
Because You want me to want You
For You
—You want to be pursued.
So, You are hiding...
Somewhere
Between clouds and dust
You are waiting...
Somewhere
Between faith and trust
You are waiting...
You are waiting, hiding…
...You are wanting
to be pursued.
Sometimes without a sound,
You are waiting, waiting...
Leaving footprints on the ground,
You are waiting...
When it seems you are not around,
—In a sky unendingly long—
You are waiting, wanting...
...Wishing...
to be found
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